Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Today is one of those days, I sit back and am so grateful to have a special son with cerebral palsy. Ryder is such a sweet loving kid. He teaches Greg and I so much.
I am filled with much emotion today because of his struggles. We get so caught up in our busy life with Ryder we tend to forget he's a "different" kid. Now that Ryder talks (alot!). He is now realizing his differences from his cousins or buddies.
He asks to run, walk...today he really wanted to sit by himself.
Ryder was playing basketball in his playroom, and really wanted to sit to shoot the ball into basket... I had to help Ruby at the same time. Ryder cried to sit, it wasn't an anger thing it was a sad thing....I could see in his eyes he knew... he wanted to sit like the other kids his age....we kind of just stared at each other and emotionally just felt each other.
At that point I knew I could explain his disability... I told him about when he was born really early and got hurt inside his brain....and it hurt his legs, and muscles... Ryder laid in my arms listening, and thinking deeply about it. He told me "Kiwa I want to sit." I knew it wasn't a "help me sit" it was a "I want to sit by myself sit". Yeah, that tore my heart up.
He sees kids playing sports and he wants to do it...he wants to be independent... Greg and I dreaded the day Ryder would notice his cerebral palsy....well today was that day... It breaks our hearts....
moments like today I just grab Ryder and hold him in my arms for a long time and tell him how much I love him, and what a cool kid he is...I could hug him all day.
I told Ryder today that he will sit all by himself someday, and walk by himself. His smile was priceless. I could see in his smile that he is determined, and he will do anything he puts his mind to... like walking : )
Ryder is my Hero. I love him.

6 comments:

Dasha said...

That was just beautiful Kira, and I totally teared up. He really is special. But it says something about you too. He was definitely sent to the most loving wonderful parents.

Shiloh McKinnon said...

Crying as I read this! I know the pain you face as a mother when your child realizes they are different and there is nothing we can do to change it. I tell Kadence all the time that she was extra special to Heavenly Father because he made her special. And even though its hard sometimes he made her special because he knew she could do it!

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing that, Kira. You are such a wonderful mom. I think of Ryder often. You're right... He's a cool kid. And fortunate to have you and Greg and Ruby. I'm so thankful you're a part of our family. You bring strength and fun.

Marilee said...

Can you pass the Kleenex?

The Gundies said...

Ryder is my hero...He is just so awesomely awesome. CP or not, we knew he would be special just by the genetic donors. We are so lucky he turned out to be this cool!!

shalene said...

Ryder calls you Kiwa??? To cute♫ I love how open you are♫ The tears flow so freely♫ You and Greg and Ruby are one very special family. Heavenly Father knew you and Greg would be the best parents for Ryder♫ Please let us know when you will be in UT♫